Walking alone with the Lord Jesus.
Wednesdays Mass Readings
We know where Jesus was headed – Jerusalem.
It would seem that the disciples were aware of this as well.
Jesus was walking ahead of them.
I can see him walking with his head up, recalling the line he said, “How I long for this to be over.”
Of course he was speaking of his approaching passion and death.
And the disciples must’ve sensed this.
They were walking behind him, “afraid,” St. Mark tells us, probably dreading every step they took towards Jerusalem.
I’d like to concentrate for a moment on Jesus walking ahead of them, alone.
Jesus knew his disciples were afraid to approach him or even come near him.
So he was going for this part of the journey alone.
That was probably a good thing.
There are some things in life that are so difficult to accept and go through that we must walk in that loneliness of our own souls.
We can try to find support from other people, like Jesus did, when he shared on two other occasions about his passion with the disciples.
Remember Peter tried to stop him on one of those occasions, “This can’t happen to you.”
So Jesus is forced to go deep into his own soul where he is never alone and neither are we.
Our Heavenly Father is waiting there to comfort us with a courage that is more than human.
It’s the kind of courage that gives us hope that what we may suffer is only temporary and worth every drop of blood we share to reach God’s glorious outcome.
That’s what the disciples didn’t hear and could not see – resurrection.
Sometimes when I listen to people about very difficult situations they are facing and decisions they have to make, I see them make this journey through that loneliness to our Heavenly Father.
Don’t be afraid to go there for yourself or for someone else.
Sure, we will see how weak we are, how helpless we are, but our Heavenly Father will overwhelm us with his strength, the strength that led Jesus to Jerusalem.
Like St. Paul, we will rejoice in our weakness.
No matter how much support we have around us with good people, there are some things we just can only face alone with God.
The fruit of that time alone with him is an enduring peace that is our strength.